Temptations

I honestly haven't felt much like posting lately, but I am still here and generally still doing what I should be. I feel like I've been a lot less creative lately- generally, I am just eating stuff right out of the box because I've been tired. I've also been buying quite a few of the Weight Watchers' Smart Ones frozen entrees. It's nice to have something to break up the monotony since Nutrisystem won't ship their frozen entrees to Canada. But today, I do have something to share with you. Today is a day for me that was full of warning bells that I would do something stupid. 7 years ago today, I lost my father, and I've been feeling pretty down about it. Not much energy to do anything or to cook anything. I'm also at home by myself this weekend, so I could have just ordered a pizza and no one would have known about it, except me. I spent half an hour on various delivery sites trying to decide what I wanted but nothing really looked appealing. Even when I thought I'd found something I wanted, it didn't seem right. Then I looked at myself in the mirror and asked if I really wanted another setback. If I really wanted that pizza, then I could have it. But how was I going to feel afterwards? From experience, I know I'll feel bloated and gross, plus lousy for giving in to the urge. For me, it's always been pizza. Today, I decided no. I am sitting here eating a Smart Ones cheese pizza right now, and while it doesn't have that same greasy flavour as a delivery pizza, I'm also not going to feel like crap after eating it. I'm proud of myself.