Sigh

Well, today was intended to be an excited, triumphant post. I've been keeping a secret and didn't want to share it and risk jinxing myself by talking about it before I was really ready. But anyway, I'm not ready to quit yet so I am going to keep writing and we'll see how it goes.

A week ago, I started the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Slimdown. I've written about it before but I've always given up in less than a week, for various reasons. This time, apparently the thrill of putting those cute little star stickers on my calendar (just like potty training a toddler!), is working to keep me motivated because I've completed week one of the program. I've also been using an iPhone app, Lose It!, to keep track of my calories. I used to be a Sparkpeople fan but I love the barcode scanner on the app that saves me the hassle of inputting all the food information if it's not in the database. And of course, always having my phone around makes it handy to use.

So for the past week I've been right in my caloric range every day, and I've exercised every day except yesterday which was my day off. And boy, do those workouts kick your butt! I also add in some extra cardio on the 30 Day Shred days since the workout is only 20 minutes; I add at least 20 minutes on my elliptical trainer. I was anticipating a nice big drop in weight, which is what usually happens to me when I start exercising. I've never been this focused on exercise before. Would the promises on the Jilliam Michaels DVD about losing up to five pounds a week apply to me? Well, no. I actually gained half a pound. I felt so miserable when I looked at the scale today. How was that even possible? I'm incorporating more vegetables into my program than I usually do, exercising daily, and counting calories; how can I actually be GAINING weight? But at any rate, I committed to my husband to finish the program and see what happens. Maybe the scale will start to move. I sure hope it will! But I guess all I can do is to keep doing what I'm doing.